well, im not alright. everything has gone downhill.
3 days ago was the break up. i havent stopped crying. im an emotional fuck, and thats why he broke up with me, i saw him today. i tried not to cry, i couldnt hold it in. i couldnt stop crying, it didnt help that he was all over another girl. fucking. i still love him to death, and i would take him back, i know i shouldnt, but i would, and i will. alot of people were angered, i guess. i feel insecure, and uncomfortable aorund the whole band. i feel "outcasted". i still love him, and i hate my nexus. for i always find myself crying about how hes talking to girls on nexus and not me. i told me he loved me, i guess it was a lie. no one will make me feel like he did. but i guess its over now. maybe it will get better? maybe hell make it better? i doubt it.
someone please kill me, im to afraid to do it myself.
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