[music] - {salty dog - flogging molly}
the first evening of a brand new year.
it will be different this year.
better than last.
*last night was amazing. so. story kids. we started at the bus stop. waiting for AJ. singing reel big fish.
"ill shave my legs/ill wear a bra/ill even cut my penis off for you!"
*we were singing at the top of our lungs. AJ got there. we caught another bus. downtown, here we come. we walked. AJ had some errands to run. we followed. he met up with a new person. Lorana. 23.
"do you drink?"
"yeah"
"do you smoke?"
"yeah"
"then come sit down"
*friendship. innstantly.13 +23. we sat there. AJ left came back. a buzz. we had already drank most of it. we left for the cambie. whil AJ did some more running aorund. walked around. met new people. a new wife. Lana is her name. a beautiful girl. so pretty. so outgoing. well. we did the downtown thing. twas great. went back home...for jennis. jesse. aj. jenni. myself. + a motor home. not a whole lot of sleep occured. a wine bottle was cracked open. happy new years.
*the top bed and a curtain. noise and shaking.
*yes. it was an asshole thing to do. but according to jenni they didnt mind. they were actually laughing. i guess it didnt help when we threw the clothes at them...and the condom...AN UNUSED ONE. we fell asleep. not quite naked under the blankets. goodnights. we awoke to snow. how i dispise the snow. its only good use is the beautiful pictures and ice tea slushis. they left at 1:00. jenni and i headed for the nightingale house at around 3:30. she left at 9:30.
*now that that story is done.
*ive discovered the reason. the reason he was acting like that. im of annoyance. fuck. i knew this would happen. i love him so much. he made me confident. he made me loved. he made me feel better. were going for coffee on thursday. i hope i can patch this up. make this better. i dont want him not wanting to be my friend. ill stop...i know he doesnt hate me. ive just been getting on his nerves by thinking he does.
fuck me. slap me accross the face and let me rot my life away. wow. im deep. for saying that you should shoot. me do it quickly and quietly...goodbye.
*love*
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