[music] - {war all the time - thurday}
knocks on the door.
"Khrystyne. Wake up. Phone. Its AJ."
*groan*
"what time is it?"
"12:30, honey."
"oh? really? i never usually sleep in this late."
"i just woke up and you told me to call. the phone was right beside me."
"oh. ok. my head hurts. i had a vicious sleep."
"i love you."
"i love you too."
"are we seeing eachother today?"
"yes."
i caught the bus at 1:51. woodgrove. found brittney. *hugs*. she was one her break. 15 minutes left of it. we walked around. looking for someone with a ciggarette. no one. too bad. walked around. saw a Jenni. her hair is grand. britt just stood there while i talked. her break was over. it was decided i should go to visit Nate. only to find AJ in Spencers. a big kiss. hed been there for a while. i hadnt. we decided to go to the van. cuddled in the back under a blanket. cuddling. kisses. whispers. left woodgrove for rutherford. what a slow mall. A&W chicken burgers. mmm. we ate. we left. back to AJs. you can only guess what heppened there. im so uncomfortable with myself. its a bad thing. i want to do so much with him. but i can because i wont let myself. i just cant. eugh. i cleaned his room. typical 16 year old boys room: clothes everywhere. garbage everywhere. used condom on the floor. *sheakes head*, i love him anyways. he tried to accomplish making Kraft Dinner...but failed. soupy. i had to make it. what a silly boy. so then i was dropped of at woodgrove. called father. "pick me up at avalon" i was picked up 20 minutes later. uplands children were standing there. they waved. i hardly noticed. i hate them. with a passion. i blasted my music. started singing along. sat down on the curb. and waited. father called me a street kid and chuckeled. what a silly man. hes my idol. how couldnt he be. the original johnny knoxville is your dad? i mean come on. i dont know. maybe im exaggerating. just a bit. yeah. i am. christmas - 6 days. its not so exciting. in fact its kind of depressing. i STILL need to buy christmas presents. jeeze. im so lazy. Dan and le Jenni are no more. a sad thing. new people catching the attention. love is a crazy thing. not just one but a whole bunch of emotions rolled into one. its like a McNugget Happy Meal. you get the french fries, little drink, toy, and McNuggets. but all of the McNuggets are differently shaped. and all of these things make up the meal. you dig? i bet you dont. but thats ok. because i know what im saying. i honestly must say though. jenni and dan werent mean for eachother in my mind. they were too different. mmhmm. so, believe it or not ive had this screen up for longer than an hour. my msn is going insane. so many people talking to me. jenni wants to read. shes just as bad as me. impatient as fuck. haha. SCREW YOU JENNI!. im joking. colin. i miss him. he should be here hanging out with me. we must venture our way to courtney. but. its good hes away. hes probably happy to get away from all the non-happy nanaimo things. nanaimo is an unhappy place. its actually a very depressing place. blah. so. because ive had the screen up for so long im gona just post the damned thing. good bye and fuck you. have a nice day.
*love*
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